Talked to Samantha today... although she told me they are now Skout... we'll see how long that will last! They like to change their name. I fully support whatever name they chose. In trying super hard to get the pronouns rift, as well. 

Also talked to Jaxon this morning. He couldn't talk long but he wanted to let me know that he missed me. 

It's nice to talk to the grandkids...I miss them so much. 

 It's been a long time since I wrote on here. Many things have changed. My whole life has changed. Divorced Dave.... retired from teaching... moved to an rv full time.... with Troy of all people! 

Also screwed up my relationship with Tabitha somehow.... she had many reasons but the biggest was that I wasn't  there when she needed me. The thing is...I didn't realize she needed me. She says she asked me for help in July last year 2022... and I refused to be there for her. Those who really know me know that I wouldn't just say no...I had to have had a reason....I needed to be in Wichita for Jameson's birthday and didn't have the money to go back to Kansas City.... she didn't understand that and didn't tell me that until a month or so ago... April 2023... she also sent me a message that basically says everything I've done as a mom and Grammy was wrong and I should've known better. When I replied to defend myself she got hurt and called me venomous.... publicly on Facebook and then unfriended me... but let all her friends comment on her side of things... but I'm not supposed to feel hurt... she hasn't spoke to me in any way for over a month even though I apologized even though I'm not sure I was totally in the wrong...

I'm hurt and I'll bend over backwards apologizing if it means she'll talk to me again... but I can't do that if she won't talk to me...

I don't know what else to do...I cry myself to sleep each night because I don't know what to do...

Wow...it's been a long while since I have posted anything! I guess I've been a little busy. Since I last wrote, we have done lots! The most important thing is we have gone through the steps to become a foster family! I can't wait for that journey to begin! It will be exciting, I'm sure!

Everything else is about the same, really. Boone is still training to be a therapy dog. Grandbabies are growing - might have another one coming!!! Hubby is still as awesome as ever...my anxiety and depression are better...not the best yet, but definitely better.

Not much else to write about....so I'll go now...

Obedience Training

So...we have a new dog...Boone. He is my emotional support animal and I am training him to be my therapy dog, as well. I want him to come to school with me on a regular basis. Last night was obedience training. I am so proud of him! Even though he is a beagle - and wants to be nosy about everything, he is still learning!! So proud!

Wow...Haven't Written In a Long While!

Wow! Didn't realize it was that long ago since I have written! SO many things have happened!

Little ones have obviously grown! That baby is now on his way to two years old! And cute as the dickens! As are all five of the grandbabies, of course.

Then my former step-dad...I say former because I have disowned him...he was convicted of child molestation and sentenced to federal prison. I have one sister out of five brothers and sisters that will talk to me. But, oh well, my daughter and nieces are safe...

I recently had a major mental breakdown...I am getting over it now...I needed some time of work and a wonderful new emotional support dog to help, but, yeah...that was fun...

I have four wonderful children...one is not talking to us...don't know what his deal is...guess he's just growing up and learning to live as an adult and all...he'll come around...

I'll try and write more...but, who knows...it may be another several years!

Whatta Week...

What a week this has been...last Tuesday, my daughter was fondled by my stepfather...when she decided to warn others that it happened, she was basically disowned by half the family...pretty much told that she was making things up...never mind that her grandfather was her hero...and she had no reason to make anything like this up...but that's what happened...then on Friday, I get a call from her...she is telling me that she doesn't want to live....that she wants to die...I race across town to get to her before she does anything to herself...then take her to the emergency room where she tells them the same thing...which leads to her being admitted to a behavioral needs hospital...she was pretty much locked up in a psych ward for four days...she was diagnosed with major depression and anxiety...then this Tuesday we welcomed our 5th grandchild...a little boy named Jameson Scott...a handsome little man welcomed to the world by his big brother who happily proclaimed "My brother! He's out!!"
Yeah...Roller coaster emotions this week...

Disturbing Events...

So...things have been going pretty decent....until yesterday. Yesterday we went to see my step-dad. By we, I mean my daughter and I. While there, my step-dad decided it was okay to try and grab my daughter's butt...He actually put his hand down the back of her pants and tried to grab her butt. Then we find out that he has done this to two of my nieces, as well....We think that he has been doing this because of his illness. It requires him to be on oxygen...and his oxygen levels have been off....but still that doesn't really make things any better...it really doesn't help...I don't know what to do about it...